6/03/2005 10:57:00 PM

i feel like i'm a lonely person in this world... things aint going my way n there's nobody there for me whenever i feel down n out... haiz... y am such a pathetic person?? yes i do haf frens arnd... but i juz cant seem to confide in them.. i juz keep everything to myself... i noe some day i will explode... n i guess most pple will not noe y... haiz.... my life is sad.... i'm a worthless person....=(

y issit dat when i need some1 to be there for nobody seems to be arnd??? all i need is juz some1 to listen to me cry... u dun haf to say anything.. neither do i haf to say anything.. but it will juz make me feel so much better coz i noe u understand dat i'm sad n i'm not ready for a tok yet... y issit dat no such person exists in my life??? haiz... n worse still... u had to add salt to my wounds.. an example is when i fall down n got a cut.. i will realli appreciate if some1 will help me dress my wounds n show ur concern by asking if i'm alrite.... but y do u haf to rub salt on my cut?? it hurts so badly... n i cant take this pain... u mite think its nothing but to me it hurts like mad... n i hate it... n i think i will feel so much better if u juz keep quiet n take it as nothing happen... y dun pple understand me... y??? am i realli so difficult to understand??? maybe i am... coz i'm juz a worthles b*tch.....

6/03/2005 09:54:00 AM

i swear i'm slacking way too much in my job... but dats wat i like!! hee... well yest brought a book to read while working completed half of it oredi... den today was best... was painting my nails as i was working... wahahah.. how cool huh... n my supervisor/manager actually saw me doing it.. but she didnt say much... haha... she commented dat my nail art is nice... hee... basically everyday is so boring at work... nothing to do.. n bb brought chess today.. so we were playign chess today.. haha... fei ji qi... u noe?? hahaha... so we were like quarrelling n shouting coz i think he didnt play fairly n he think i didnt play fairly... ahahah.. interesting job i haf rite??? hahaha.. slack work... pay wise alrite lor... cant wait for payday to come... i wanna buy lotsa stuff!!!!

hmm.. anyway my business application failed... dun ask me y.. n dun console me... ntu sux... dats all i can say.. but nvm.. i'm fine wif mae... coz bb n june both got into mae... hee...so i've got pple to pei me... hee... ya.. anyway me n bb made up our mind to go kl when sch reopen to enjoy... cant wait to go.. but muz book 1st... hee... okie time to slack somemore.. hee

6/01/2005 01:00:00 AM

came to blog b4 i go for work... hee.. 1stly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY june!!! may all ur wishes come true!! sorry i couldnt celebrate wif u ah... paiseh... but we'll go shopping next wk for ur present!! hee... kinda late... but its the tot dat counts rite?? hee...

alrite.. went swimming today... it started to pour once i reach the pool.. so suay... but i waited for the rain to stop... n it stopped after abt 30mins... heng ah.... still can swim.... swam 9 laps... weird no. rite? coz got 1 lap i swam half way n some irritating ah fat block my way n i had to stop... not dat i'm mean abt ah fat... but he didnt even make an attempt to swim away from my lane... wat the hell lor.. but nvm... i'm nice enuff to stop n let him cross 1st... so un-gentleman.. actually could haf swam a few more laps.. but due to time constrain n i dun wan myself to feel so tired.. i stop.. had to do dat coz i'm working in the afternoon lor... later i fall aslp at the counter... anyway my work is realli so damn slack... the morning shift pple r saying they r going to bring monopoly so we can all play... wahaha... i hope they bring.. coz i'm so bored of bingo oredi... hee.... time to prepare for work!!! i love my job.... =)